É difícil criar novas rotinas, mesmo quando estamos cansados das antigas. É difícil ter certezas, mesmo acerca de algo que desejamos tanto.
Estive hoje na segunda aula do curso de joalharia, agora numa nova escola: Engenho e Arte. Se tudo correr bem começarei a sério na segunda semana de Maio, com aulas todos os dias de manhã.
Não gosto de rotinas, mas depois de as ter durante tanto tempo, sinto-me perdida por poder dar-me ao luxo de não as ter - ou de poder criá-las conforme me apetecer... depois de habituar-me a essa falsa liberdade, custa-me agora habituar-me a uma nova rotina. Não porque a tarefa em si não me agrade, é mesmo uma pressão psicológica difícil de entender!
Depois da aula, de voltar para casa caminhando ao sol, teclo enquanto sinto as marcas de alguns cortes nos dedos doer um pouco - consequências de passar tempo a limar latão, talvez ajudadas pela falta de experiência, ou "de calo" como diria a minha mãe. Poder-se-ia pensar que o trabalho dito artístico é intelectual, mas se alguém o pensa está certamente longe desta realidade... o artista gosta de sujar as mãos: seja na tinta, seja na limalha, seja no barro ou na terra. Só assim podemos sentir verdadeiramente o que fazemos. Depois de tantos anos confinada ao trabalho dentro de uma gabinete, onde o contacto com o mundo lá fora chegava apenas através da paisagem que admirava pela janela, custa-me adaptar-me a uma sensação que não devia nunca ter admitido perder. É incrível aquilo que conseguimos fazer com as nossas próprias mãos! Sim, é deste trabalho que gosto.
Deixo-vos com uma harmonia turquesa, porque para além de ser uma cor de que gosto muito, transmite-me a sensação de calma sonhadora que procuro... mais mosaicos aqui.
Não se esqueçam que amanhã é dia de {the interview series}!
It's difficult to create new routines, even when we are tired of the old ones. It's difficult to be sure, even about something that we want so much.
Today I went for the second time to my jewelry class, now in a new school: Engenho e Arte. If all goes for the best I'll begin with classes every morning, in the second week of May.
I don't like routines, but after having them for so long, I feel lost to be able to give me the luxury of not having any - or to create them as I please... now, after getting used to this false freedom, it's difficult to accustom myself to a new routine. Not because I don't like the task itself, I think it's a psychological pressure difficult to understand!
After class, I walked back home in the sun, and now, while I type, I feel the marks of some cuts on my fingers hurting a bit - the consequences of spending some time filing the brass, perhaps helped by the lack of experience. Some may think that artistic work is intellectual, but this couldn't be more far from reality... Artists like to get their hands dirty, either in ink, metal, clay or earth. Only then we can truly feel that we do. After so many years confined to work within an office, where the contact with the outside world came only from the scenery I admired through the window, I find it hard to adapt myself to a feeling that I should have never admitted to lose. It's amazing what you can do with our own hands! Yes, I really love this kind of work.
I leave you with a mosaic in turquoise harmony, because besides being a color that I like, it gives me the sense of dreamy calm that I look for... more mosaics here.
Don't forget that tomorrow is time for {the interview series}!
Today I went for the second time to my jewelry class, now in a new school: Engenho e Arte. If all goes for the best I'll begin with classes every morning, in the second week of May.
I don't like routines, but after having them for so long, I feel lost to be able to give me the luxury of not having any - or to create them as I please... now, after getting used to this false freedom, it's difficult to accustom myself to a new routine. Not because I don't like the task itself, I think it's a psychological pressure difficult to understand!
After class, I walked back home in the sun, and now, while I type, I feel the marks of some cuts on my fingers hurting a bit - the consequences of spending some time filing the brass, perhaps helped by the lack of experience. Some may think that artistic work is intellectual, but this couldn't be more far from reality... Artists like to get their hands dirty, either in ink, metal, clay or earth. Only then we can truly feel that we do. After so many years confined to work within an office, where the contact with the outside world came only from the scenery I admired through the window, I find it hard to adapt myself to a feeling that I should have never admitted to lose. It's amazing what you can do with our own hands! Yes, I really love this kind of work.
I leave you with a mosaic in turquoise harmony, because besides being a color that I like, it gives me the sense of dreamy calm that I look for... more mosaics here.
Don't forget that tomorrow is time for {the interview series}!
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estou curiosa acerca da "the interview series" de amanhã.
ReplyDeleteé lindo esse azul.
ai e nem me fales em rotina... ;)
I pefectly understand getting lost in routines! It's a love/hate relationship for me but once you balance it, it feels good. After all, working in the office is routine too but then quite often you do things on automatic pilot and now it involves using your hands and head and soul! Good luck with your classes - it sounds like a new world is opening up for you, Ana!
ReplyDeleteGood luck with your classes! Can't wait to see what your creativity uses your hands to make :)
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